Strange things

Okay envision this: toy story 1. Woody and Andy's toys are fretting over his birthday and in comes Buzz Lightyear. Woody is denying that things are going to change. Cue the music "strange things are happening to me, strange things....." and all of a sudden the cowboy is standing in a room full of astronaut and space things.

Somehow I feel like that. I feel like I'm in a daze, and I really can't explain how I feel. My pregnant friends or friends that have recently had kids say "oh yeah, I know how you feel" - but none of us can explain it. I am exhausted, yes. I'm hungry yet simultaneously not wanting to eat, yes. I feel stupid, yes. I feel drugged and in a daze, yes. All at the same time with a splash of nausea. Not a great feeling, just strange. I know I sound crazy.... And believe me, I KNOW I'm crazy.

On a different note, I've recently been on a country music kick. The songs don't have to be sappy at all, but the stupidest things will make me cry. The rascal flatts song where he sings about the best view being the front porch looking in... Talking about his babies and his lady, make me boo hoo in the car. Don't even get me started talking about the Tim McGraw song!

So JR and I have been trying for a little while to conceive, and my doc had put me on a round of medication to assist my body. They were monitoring everything, and we thought that we had missed January. Darn. "Well, we try again next month" is what we thought. I was at the dentist the day before Valentines day. It was 8am. We all know I hate mornings. Hate hate hate. Just about as much as I hate going to the dentist. I had checked in, and was sitting aimlessly watching the scooby-doo movie that was on the TV and listening to the background radio at the desk. I started listening to the Tim McGraw song playing, and was BOO-HOOing in the office. I'm sure the receptionist thought I was crazy, I just couldn't stop crying. This is very uncharacteristic for me. I got to work and made fun of myself. Then I said something dumb, and my coworker asked if I was pregnant. I realized that aunt flow hadn't started yet, so I called my lady doctor to ask when things should start for this month. She recommended I do a home pregnancy test.... Three tests on valentines morning. POSITIVE. POSITIVE. POSITIVE. :) We hadn't missed January after all. I've always hated Valentines day, and this was the best Valentines present ever. We will always celebrate Valentines (I will acknowledge our celebrations) from here on out!

Look up Tim McGraws song "my little girl". This is one of the 'signs' that make me feel like I'm arriving a baby girl. The part where the little girl says "daddy love you more" oh gosh I get teary eyed just thinking about the lyrics!



Finally I would like to do a shout out to my amazing husband. He has been doing everything around the house. It took me all last weekend just to do the laundry. He washed the cars, cleaned them out, cleaned the garage, and worked both days too! He has been cooking dinner and cleaning the dishes. He has been bringing me crackers, and has been okay (or pretended well) if the dinner he worked so hard to prepare is not what I end up wanting to eat. I love you and thank you for being awesome. :)